At such a young age. That is what I think about myself a lot. At 19 I have a £6,000 loan that is roughly £300 in arrears, and £300+ taken out on my credit card. I am in a volunteer job where I do not get paid, I am on job seekers allowance working towards a I.T User NVQ level 2 and then hopefuly 3.

However, This last monday, I was in a jail cell (read the last post to know more) So I could not make it to my signign on to get paid, therefore this thursday, I was not paid :(!

My life is pretty much dominated by the fact I have no money and cannot afford anything I actualy do. I have been single for to long with nothing but sexual relationships in the last 3-4 years. I had one short relationship, not sure why that ended :P.

My only love lives to far away to really be in a relationship, it sucks I know if I had the moeny I would be with her now..and not here.

Anyway, despite those few things that get me down a lot, I still try to enjoy life as it comes, just with a bit more planning now and a lot more consideration to what I am actualy doing and what will become of it.

That is life I guess, I am hoping to get a paying job soon within the IT sector. Which will hopefuly start me on at least 12,000 p/a. That way I will get around £900 per month. I plan to pay at the least £500 per month to my loan to get that out of the way. The plan for once I get my loan, and credit card paid off is to save half of each paycheck, and spend the rest on what I WANT :). And have one big party as the weight on my shoulders will just be lifted... it will feel so great.

xD anyway, rant over!