Basicly if you do not wish to read what goes through my head, stop now 
I was just sitting here and talking to one of my friends in the USA, they are the same age as me. And the topic of their wedding came up. Fair enough, this friend has been with their fiance for some years now and im sure they will be a happy married couple. It just made me think though.
Most of the people I know my age either have kids, getting married, or have been in a long term relationship for quite some time. Yet here I am staying single for ages and not even thinking of kids or marriage yet.
What does that mean? does it make me immature, stuck in the past, now wanting to grow up?
Or is everyone else just rushing things in life. I mean, yeah im nearly out of my teens..but I have a whole life ahead of me still, I still want to enjoy it now and then settle down, family kids house car and all that. Then I want to settle down in a job and just work day in and day out for someone, making them millions whilst I get 1% of that if im lucky.
I guess I have done more then others my age in some ways, I've traveld the world (well, some of it) for a year after I received some inheritance money. I got to see different cultures, and met many wonderful people. It was a life changing experiance, I learned a lot from the time I spent in other countrys.
I got to witness how people, in countrys that most people havn't even heard of, deal with life without all of the privledges we have in the nicer, richer countrys. Familys who barely have enough food to feed their familys happily took me in for a few days, fed me, gave me somewhere to sleep and taught me many wonderful things.
But this is going off the point a bit. Basicly I was beating myself up mentaly because everyone my age seems to have sorted their lifes out, settling down..and here I am without even the slightest glimmer of a relationship starting with anyone. Guess that's life? 
